Deep thought of the day~

The past couple of days has me thinking about my life before kids and how it will be until they are in school and beyond...

Having been a hairstylist for 16 years-my schedule had always been 10am-8pm (sometimes later) and including Sat's. Once I opened a salon in our home I was packed-so busy I could hardly eat lunch. It was very profitable and fulfilling but very busy and time consuming-with little to no time left over for myself, my needs, our home, etc.

Once Chloe came along my priorities shifted big time. I went part time, then I went to every other Saturday-family time was more important to me. Laundry had doubled and dinner earlier than 9am became a necessity.

Then here comes Gabe. We discussed and decided not to send him to daycare and to try to keep a few clients around. It was difficult. It ended up good that we didn't send him to daycare since he was a very sickly baby and picking up every germ he could. If he went to daycare I cringe to think of the $ spent sending him there only to be nursing him better at home...

So here I am with Sawyer and Gabe both at home. I have had a few clients call and have made it work. I digress-this is getting long and I need to get to the point...

So I have this friend/client-She was a high school music teacher for years who quit when she had her 2cd child. While home with him she still had her "foot in the door" so to speak-with music and making a living-just not all day full time teacher stuff...She started a show choir for kids from the whole school district to come try out and they travel evenings and weekends to perform at senior centers,other schools,etc. Neat that she created this whole other life w/ her love of music and what she was educated in.

Secondly a lady who runs a veryyy popular chili parlor here in town is calling it quits. She's sold off her family business that she's spent her whole life in (from what I know) BUT the way she's keeping her foot in the door is by still keeping her spices for her famous chili a secret and it going to package them and sell them back to the parlor and other resteraunts out of state...

SO my point is-I feel like I should be doing something with my life-to help our household-somehow-by what I know-but not by doing it. Does that make a darned bit of sense??LOL- NO I know it doesn't.

*If you're still reading*~~~~~So here I am asking for comments, suggestions, thoughts-anything. I know ya'll are visiting me-I see you on my feedjit (lol) so shoot me your thoughts. What on earth could one do w/ a hairstyling background to allow themselves to stay at home still- yet not on my feet for 8 hrs w/ crying babies underfoot covered in hair!?

Making jewelry is expensive. It's doubley expensive when it doesn't sell...Of coarse I am hopeful the Holiday Hall goes well but with the economy these days I'm just not too optimistic. I am convinced that unless you are published it's difficult to really get anywhere in this biz. I love sitting at the torch and creating-it's fulfilling but had also turned into a luxury since it's few and far between that I can have a solid block of time to do this in during naptime-IF I can get them to both cooperate. Which isn't very often. But I DO intend to continue making beads and jewelry...

So please-if anyone has any ideas throw them my way. Sorry for the babble. My mind just feels cluttered today...